"...there's not a real way to live this.... just remember to stay relentless.... don't stop runnin until it's finished. it's up to you, the rest is unwritten...."

noooooooooooo don't do it. please don't do it.

i'm getting higher and higher....

my name is hov. h to the o v.

J'Anna (Jay-Anna) Lilia DiDominica
 
Age: Twenty Two
 
Biography: J'Anna grew up with a very wealthy lifestyle that knew nothing more important than family. Although small the member's of her family have always stuck together. J's family was always moving from place to place due of her father's international chain of hotels, ......or so she thought. It wasn't until an international tabloid sparked her sight with a picture of her younger father and his original wife she found out her true family's past or at least the half shew had never known about. J'Anna knows how hard her father has worked to build his empire for the rest of them. It pains her to know that a past like this even exist when it comes to her family. This among many things has caused a weird obsession with J'Anna wanting to set the record straight once and for all. She will go at any cost to protect her family. J knows that ICE is the perfect preparation and networking with devising a successful scheme to make this happen.
 
Relationship Status: Single
 
Model: Kim Kardashian

Name: J'Anna (Jay-Anna) Lilia DiDominica
 
Age: Twenty Two
 
Likes: Her Blackberry, Coffee, Haute Couture Fashion, Socializing, Multi-Colors, Rhinestones, Lace, Snake Prints, Trying New Things, Shoes, Blatancy, Exotic Beaches, Everything To Be In Order, Good Competition, Having Powerful Status
 
Dislikes: People who are 'worst-dressed', Her Obsession To Succeed At Any Cost, Anyone She Can't Figure Out, People Who Judge Her Based On Her Family, Anyone Who Kisses A*s, Past Relationships, Immaturity, Hangovers, Girls Who Sleep Their Way Into Everything, Her Grandmother
 
Personality: The perfect word to describe J would be precise. Whether she reveals it or not J'Anna knows what she wants in even the smallest of situations. Therefore, she acts accordingly. Most of the time she comes off as a bit blatant or rude but it's for good reason, it helps her to read people. You see J has a nasty obsession for competition even she knows it.
 
Style: Very Very Fashionable.
 
Family Members:
 
Antoni L. DiDominica//father// J's father is a total Hard a*s and is ten million times more precise than she is. With an ultimate goal of success for his entire family he himself started Beaches Resorts around the world. He knows this family history has a lot to make up for and accepts nothing less from anyone else, especially not J and her siblings. He has invested for each of them to have a craft of their own and do just as he did with his chain of resorts. Hers is fashion. He keeps a very close eye.
 
Joana DiDominica//mother// J'Anna's mother is a leading lady in whatever society she is apart of. Secretly knowing the history of the Neruda name, she stepped in at the perfect time to wash that tide away and for the perfect reason. J knows her mother has an obsession with society partly because she is so good at it and expects nothing less from her offspring.
 
Elisabet Y. DiDominica//sister// Elisabet is older than J'Anna by three years. She loves her sister dearly but will do anything to keep her on her toes when it comes to preparing her for the cruel world of socialites. To some it may seem as if these two have some type of crazed sibling rivalry going on, and they like for it to seem this way.
 
Anthoni DiDominica//twin brother// Anthoni is four minutes younger than J but the two have always had an unbreakable bond. Along with being her twin Anthoni is also J's manager.
 
Best Friends: None
 
How You Feel About ICE: I am literally in love with ICE. The academics seem like great preparation. Never have I ever been so excited with the challenge of something that seems so rewarding. The sisterhood is what ultimately amazes me. The idea of a group of individuals so much like myself in so many different ways entices me.
 
How you feel about your families past: My family's past is apart of me, whether I object to it or not. I feel that it is my opportunity to change that after all we were royalty for a reason.
 
Top 5 Families You Want:
Cantrell Family
Astoria Family
Havarlic Family
Courtier Family
Macaby Family
 
Your Secret: My father has never really been so verbal about our family's past with his children, besides the fact of where we came from. Three years ago I secretly went searching for my complete family history and was successful in finding out everything. I tracked down his first wife who shamed my family's name. I began a secret affair with her eldest son to seek revenge only to find out he could possibly be my step brother.
 
Biography: J'Anna grew up with a very wealthy lifestyle that knew nothing more important than family. Although small the member's of her family have always stuck together. J's family was always moving from place to place due of her father's international chain of hotels, ......or so she thought. It wasn't until an international tabloid sparked her sight with a picture of her younger father and his original wife she found out her true family's past or at least the half shew had never known about. J'Anna knows how hard her father has worked to build his empire for the rest of them. It pains her to know that a past like this even exist when it comes to her family. This among many things has caused a weird obsession with J'Anna wanting to set the record straight once and for all. She will go at any cost to protect her family. J knows that ICE is the perfect preparation and networking with devising a successful scheme to make this happen.
 
Relationship Status: Single
 
Model: Kim Kardashian
 
Important Links: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/collection?id=1579164

Hey guys your pangs of inspiration gave me pangs of inspiration so viola! Just a little something different let me know what you think.... @ssaarah @gabbymcgabbs @nelliefrellie @saltey
 
p.s. love you all, miss you all :)
 
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**flashback to the day before**
 
"Alright it's showtime, bro" Marc lightly knudged Hart
 
Hart and Marc led as I and the rest of the guys followed in line. The rest of the grooms party stood in the foyer of the church as we waited on the bridal party, who was running slightly off schedule. F.ck, how many people were here? Standing where I was I could clearly see into the windows of the doors. This church was gigantic, the isle alone seemed a mile long. Seemed like so many things were going on at once.
 
"The girls were supposed to be here ten minutes ago. What's the hold up?" Marc pointed out
 
"How on earth are you keeping your composure right now?" one of the guys asked Hart from behind me
 
"What's there to freak out about?" Hart shrugged
 
"What. is. there. to. freak. out. about. Are you kidding me? Don't get me wrong, Amelia's great but dude your getting married FOR LIFE!"
 
"I guess nothing about the thought of me spending my life with Mia makes me nervous. I'm more happy than anything."
 
The conversation continued but my intrest couldn't keep up with it. No doubt, I was estatic about Hart and Mia getting married today but I was squeezing out of my own misery just to show it. My mind kept playing the fact that Docia was going to be walking down that hallway any minute now, back and forth. All sorts of crazy sh.t was racing through my mind. I still, to this second, didn't know how I was going to face her again. I wasn't ready to face her. It had been three and a half months since we had seen each other face to face and that was a f.cking nightmare. It still *felt* like it happened yesterday. Even worse I had to find some way to get my sh.t together because our friends didn't know about any of this. She hadn't even showed up at any of the dress rehearsals and today she was here, which meant we were paired to be walking down the isle together.
 
"Besides, I think I've got enough pictures to blackmail Sean from the bachleor party last night" Marc laughed in a lowered tone
 
I came to and laughed reassuringly as the rest of the guys joined in. I didn't even remember half of what happened last night.
 
"We're herreeeee!!!" Ari's voice managed over the loud clacking of heels
 
F.ck. The laugh on my face vanished as I realized the girls had arrived. I couldnt turn around so I just stood there.
 
"Soooo sorry but we had a major glitch..." I recognized Summer's voice
 
"...and lots of girl moments with tears on the way over" they all laughed
 
"Figures!"
 
I can do this, I just have to breathe. I braced myself by fumbling with my shirt collar as I turned around.
 
Sh.t! I felt my stomach drop as my eyes stopped on the current frame of Docia'a face. She was f.cking beautiful. All of a sudden I was burning up in my tuxedo. She was laughing with Summer about something walking to take her place next to me. My heart pumped and my palms turned moist. I was begining to sweat on my forehead. What the f.ck was I thinking? I couldn't do this.
 
Her eyes linked with mines and we both stood face to face. In spite of everything going on around us, none of that existed for the second of that moment. I felt the pit of my stomach cave in and it hurted like h.ll. I could read every last feeling that was shown in her face..... and in her eyes. Sh.t, I was still so in love with this girl. Never had I ever wanted to kiss her so badly. But instead I held out my elbow for her to interlink with mines as the first couple started down the isle, the wedding started. I made up my mind that if I couldn't say what I really felt things were better left unsaid.
 
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It was over. The wedding was all kinds of beautiful & amazing. I don't think I could ever forget something so beautiful between two people for as long as I live. More so, was the fact that I got to witness something so perfect next to the person I had been dying to see. I just wanted to tell her that I still loved her, that I needed her. I was an emotional wreck. I needed a drink badly. I needed to get out of here. We saw Hart and Mia off on their honeymoon last night and now the wedding was over.
 
"Hey we're on for drinks next week right?" Marc and I walked away from the group
 
We had gathered for brunch because it was no telling when the next time we'd all be together. It too was now over.
 
"Yeah just hit me up as soon as you get back to Paris. I'm taking a plane out in an hour or so, gotta get back to the office." I replied
 
"Oh yeah, that's right, Docia told me she was catching a plane out too. I'll go and get her for you"
 
What?
 
Before I could come up with anything Marc was heading towards Ari and Docia, who were saying good bye to each other. I stood there nervously as I watched her expression from Marc. She smiled and headed towards me but not before saying good bye to everyone again. I regained my composure. As soon as she reached me without a word I just turned and walked beside her until we were off enough. Now on the sidewalk I felt like I could come out of this shell I was hiding in for the past two days. I should say something. No, f.ck, I can't. But I looked at her and I couldn't resist.
 
"Look Docia, we-"
 
"Sean,"
 
She cut me off. Her eyes were f.cking beautiful.
 
"we agreed rememeber. Everything went good the way we planned so let's just keep it that way."
 
Everything was on the table. She was looking at me talking directly to me and their were no false pretences. I knew exactly what I wanted to tell her but instead I chose otherwise.
 
"Fine, if that's what you want,.. fine." my voice trailed
 
That paining feeling in my gut came back with a vengence as I watched her hail for a cab. Like that she was gone. It was over.

Sooooo hello everyone :) I was tagged by @xshadesofblackx thanks for thinking of me!!
 
FAVORITES
SWEETS - Sour Brite Crawlers
BEVERAGES - Water
ICE CREAM - Jamoca Almond Fudge
PERFUME - (don't laugh but....) Delicious Bliss by Secrets (yes it's my deodorant and i'm obsessd with the way it smells X_X )
FASHION ICON - Rhianna, Joshua Kissi, Solange, Style Pantry
MALE SINGER - Donny Hathaway, Marvin Gaye
FEMALE SINGER - Aretha Franklin, Beyonce, Lauryn Hill
SONG - (sooooo many!!!!)...... My Petition By Jill Scott
TV SHOW - The Cosby Show
MOVIE - Devil Wears Prada, Love and Other Drugs
ACTOR - Denzel Washington
ACTRESS - Anne Hathaway
BOOK - Art Of Seduction
NUMBER - ???
FLOWER - Red Roses
WEBSITE - Polyvore, Tumblr,
SEASON - Spring, Summer
HOLIDAY - My Birthday (it's a holiday to me)
MIDNIGHT SNACK - Dairy Queen Oreo Blizzard

RANDOM
Who would you do a duet with? Kanye West
Hottest men? TRISTAN WILDS!!! (we've been together for about 3 years now.... in my head, best three years of my life tho)
Hottest women?
Is there any movie you know all the lines to? Tangled (props to my 4 year old), Friday
Saddest movie ever? The Lion King

THE OPOSITE SEX
Tall or short? No pref
What is the first physical thing you notice in the opposite sex? the way they walk
Most important physical feature? Arms
Most important personality trait? Sincerity
How can they win you over? Understanding my humor
What is your ideal date with a significant other? Museum or Amusement Park
Would you ever be able to handle a long-distance situation? Yes
Is there anything you won't tolerate while in a relationship? Asswholishness
Would you rather have a big or secret wedding? Secret
 

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12:18 a.m.
 
D.am, my night was no where near over but somehow my bar was clear. Strange, I thought, especially on a night when I was working alone. I exhaled and leaned against the bar taking advantage of the moment. It was the first time all night I realized parts of my body ached.

"I'll have a scotch, light ice please. Oh and can I get a napkin with that? Preferably with your number written on it." he smiled flirtatiously

I smiled back and even went the extra mile to add a cute little laugh. He was cute, I guess. Why not? But in my mind I couldn't help but think about how typical that line was.

"Aren't you a little too hot to be using lines to pick up women?" I placed his drink in front of him

"A little?" he smiled c.ckily

"Maybe I would have said a lot if you hadn't used that cheesy line on me." I shrugged

He sat a twenty down, fully engaged in my smile. Too bad I wasn't into him not even a little.

"Amazing. You are exactly my type. Honestly, you wanna know why I use lines like that."

"Entertain me."

"I love it when a woman cuts straight to the chase and tells me how cheesy they are. You see it's kind of like a little trap I create. And you have fallen directly in it."

I knew this guy was a weirdo. This had to be like the ninth one tonight.

"Is that so? Well, I tell you what. Let's play a little game. You keep buying drinks and I'll keep serving them to you with napkins and if your lucky one of those napkins just might have a number on them." I smiled purposely showing a little cleavage

"Deal."

I walked back towards the other end of the bar to tend to a few more customers.

"You know what? Now I see how you develop so many stalkers." Coult said walking behind the bar

"Oh shut up" I laughed "I do not develop them their just already crazy. I mean I can't help it if they can't stay away from all this goodness" I motioned to myself and he laughed again

"So I didn't just watch you set that guy up to be sitting there probably for the rest of the night waiting to get a napkin with YOUR number in it."

"....NO"

"Whatever Sanaa, your full of it." he took a sip of something he poured

"No YOUR full of it Coult and what were you doing watching me anyway...." I got slightly amused

"Look it's not what you think and you know it."

"Oh, don't I know it. I think every girl and maybe guy in this club knows it...."

"That's right I'm a..."

"...a one woman man." I laughed as I finished his sentence
 
"I resent the way you said that Sanaa."

"So what?"

"So I don't think you should be joking about my marital situation."

"Do I sense an obvious hint of sensitivity Coulter?" I looked directly at him with a cocked eyebrow

No doubt, Coulter was probably one of the hottest guys that worked here. But one thing I did not do was pursue guys who obviously did not want to be pursued. I mean yeah we flirted but who didn't flirt with Coult. I mean it's kind of impossible not to. But most important the only way to stand out to a guy who constantly gets hit on is not to hit on him..... that much. Coulter and I had actually become really good friends, which was mind boggling to me as I had never really had a guy friend that I was as close to as Coult. We were comfortable with each other and that was it.

"What's wrong with being sensitive?"

"So that's a yes?" I stopped what I was doing

"No, that's a no. I think there's nothing wrong with being sensitive and furthermore I'm getting kind of annoyed with everyone thinking my marriage is a joke."
 
“Poor baby. Have we been picking on you too much?” I teased as I gave him my classic sad puppy dog face that hardly no man could resist
 
“Shut up.” was all he could manage
 
“You know usually when I pout men tend to kiss me.”
 
“That guy is.....” he motioned to the napkin guy at the other end of the bar
 
“Staring at me. I know.” I finished knowingly
 
“How would you know that? Your back is completely turned to them.” he asked completely baffled
 
I laughed then I leaned in a little closer again, purposely showing a little cleavage.
 
“Can I tell you a secret Coult?” he nodded
 
“I guess.”
 
“We always know when you’re staring.”
 
“I don’t know, I'm pretty subtle.” he c.cked a brow doubtfully
 
“I bet that guy thinks he’s subtle too.” I said at the same time passing him another drink accompanied with a numberless napkin
 
“Do you need a refill on you.” I asked taking it out of his hands and finishing it off
 
......but not before almost choking and spitting it out everywhere
 
”Shi.t Coult….don’t you but coke in your jack and cokes?!”
 
“Can’t take your liquor I'm guessing.”
 
“Wrong again hot stuff. I could drink you under the table any day.” My drinking capabilities could not be matched
 
“I would test you on that, but I don’t think it would be that professional. Plus you’re not allowed to drink while you’re on the clock.”
 
‘You are!!!” I yelled at him as he walked away from the bar
 
“Yes….but I'm the boss.”
 
In that case, *sighs* another three hours to go for a muchly needed pick me up.......